"Dirty on the Downlow" is a digital mini musical featuring 14 episodes that explores betrayal and emotional resilience in a world of pageants. A pregnant wife's life unravels, revealing layers of heartbreak and hope through symbolic songs. Episodes release weekly, inviting viewers to experience the evolving narrative in real time.
“surviving an affair”
Ego pulls that crap from time to time
I’m so grateful that I can breathe. I feel I can handle all needs financially, health wise, mentally, spiritually, and more. I lean on the fact that these things are mine and I’m grateful for them. Healing is about opening up, like the quote about pain being where the light comes in. To heal we … Continue reading Ego pulls that crap from time to time
You are not a dumbass.
She makes me think of this book I read where a creepy neighbor dresses up as a woman so he can spy in people’s windows and not be caught. It’s about this vibe of mental illness mixed with probably learned narcissism and the world view of a three year old that it’s all about me. … Continue reading You are not a dumbass.
Loving without abandon and feeling no fear in the face of that love given so freely.
Sometimes when I feel distracted, I write for a few minutes to get the creative process of life flowing through me. I feel like I better start finding ways to think of other people soon of ways to support and help other people in a way that makes a difference in life. I say that … Continue reading Loving without abandon and feeling no fear in the face of that love given so freely.
Unless I Have Already Saved Myself
Today I want to remind anyone who has or is going through a painful time. You are loved, you are not alone, and healing happens. Each of us suffers. We all have something that hurts our soul, messes with our mind, and threatens to change our core if we let it. The choice is ours. … Continue reading Unless I Have Already Saved Myself
Truth Tellin’
I realized many things about myself during these affairs. One that struck me during the second round was that I have some sort of world view that eventually everyone will tell the truth. It was an interesting experience to realize that I had that belief even in the face of evidence quite to the contrary. Here … Continue reading Truth Tellin’
Sight of the Island
When I wrote in March 2015, I couldn't look forward and know with certainty where I would be today. Here goes. I never really did birthday parties for myself. Being sung to with cake all ablaze often brought feelings of anxiety for me, so if it could be avoided, I would. I mean all hanging out … Continue reading Sight of the Island
There’s a lot of work involved
I'm going to keep it short because boy I could (and likely am already) rambling about this. I want to say. It's a lot of f'ing work to heal yourself, but it's worth it. It's worth learning who you are, what makes you happy (please note that I said what not who), how you want to live your life, what things are important to you? Keeping your mind open to answering these things can lead to interesting discoveries and new beginnings. Perhaps you will stay, perhaps you won't, but in the end you better make damn sure you are better for it anyway and I know you can.
I should have known
Growth. Spirit. It’s easy to forget that it takes work to grow. The tree has to reach underground to grow tall, just like we have to reach inside to allow ourselves to change. Be like water I used to tell myself. Adjust to the new things in life and be like water. Strong, able to carve valleys. Things will work out better than I can even imagine I would tell myself. In many ways they have, even though I should have known.
Navigating Infidelity: What You Should Know
Affairs, some want them, some have had them and some are hurt by them. This page discusses a short description of each.